Hi
Grief is so weird. It never ends, ya know? And it changes bit stays the same.
I'd like to share some things I've written.
FOR JUST A MOMENT...IT'S WORTH IT
When you hear it
Can you see?
When you Fear it
Can you feel?
The wind
She sings And screams
Dances and drums
While the moon
Fades from
Silver
To red
To orange and magic
Inside corset colors
Of lace and frustration
Nothing gets
Deleted when healing
Is on the line
Listen
It's harder than you think
Ask
Because that too takes
Lakes of strength
We are woven
Together
A tapestry
Of human and ape
Chimp, chalice,, tortoise, maple, mica
Erosion both breaks and builds
Time is the gift
Our children struggle with
The barrier that bars us from seeing
Easily
Our hope in fruition
And time
Is the
Thing
That lets the roots
Grow too.
Let Time
Rumble
In your bones
When you hear it
Can you see?
When you Fear it
Can you feel?
When you wonder
Can you wait?
Can you?
INVISIBLE
I never
Is a game
Many of us have played
Hoping for a glimpse
Into the sexy
Parts
The hidden parts
And then
There is the pain place
Of
I'll never have
A room tinted green
Shameful and invisible
What did you do?
A question that bends
In on itself
Because so often
It's nothing
I didn't do it
Right
They cannot
See
FALLING
I never
Is a game
Many of us have played
Hoping for a glimpse
Into the sexy
Parts
The hidden parts
And then
There is the pain place
Of
I'll never have
A room tinted green
Shameful and invisible
What did you do?
A question that bends
In on itself
Because so often
It's nothing
I didn't do it
Right
They cannot
See
Me
Trust is hard
Hope is hard.
And even when you make
The hard choices...
You can still be
Invisble
FALLING
Do you know
How quiet the deep is?
We make believe so much,
Tip toe through the sore spots
With our screams swallowed
And strangling us
We are the ones
Left Behind
And we wonder
How do you turn the sound down
When there is none?
We walk
Like you do
With our secrets stuffed
Deep down
Chained to an Emptiness
So heavy
Our limbs bend in broken ways
But quietly
A quiet so deep it silences
So much around us
Like snow, it blankets our world
Swallowing foot steps
Tears
Hopes
Do you know
How quiet the deep is?
They say it's better to have loved
And lost
Than never to have loved at all but
What about the walking
After?
For years. Without.
Holding so much of it
In
Whispering
Always whispering
So loud
The tears tremble themselves dry
Before even
Falling
QUESTIONS
When I was young
It was wondering
Why they fought
So
Much
Then it was
Where is he? Why doesn't
He wasn't to talk to me?
Then it was wondering
Where I'd go
Who I'd be
Who would
Stand
Beside me
Time turned
And I walked
In the woods
In college corridors
Wait staff hallways beneath
Restaurant buildings
So many
Lovers
Cigarettes
Tears
Lessons
Poems
Books
When you are widowed
Too young (what age is old enough? )
Your questions
Bend
It's about how
To get through
Not just day to day
But despair to hope (because there are kids)
Hurting to healing
Hating it all
To
Embracing
The pain
Because that blood
That rage
That
Fear
He has a name
The name is
Having Loved And Lost
And there's verses
And books
And songs
Lives
Written about
Him. Her. Them
Here's a secret:
The answer looks like nothing
You've ever
Seen
No matter what you've
Read
Written
Done
It's bloody footprint
After stupid mistake
After gorgeous victory
And it doesn't end
Till you do
Because their father
Is gone
Your best friend
Is gone
Your love and hope and future
Is gone
At least
How it was all almost
Written.
So.
The next one is about
How do you find the will
To not just breathe
Again
But how do you
Find a way
To live
Again
Me
Trust is hard
Hope is hard.
And even when you make
The hard choices...
You can still be
Invisble
