to lend out my smile
so that it will be deeper
than what I have now
but now
for now
I will keep trying to face the tiger
till I can smile at him
till I can get him
to roll over
and let me pet
his forbidden belly
my ache is in part for
the lost thing
in part for a sense of safety
stability
I walk in lines of life
filtered through sharp stick stones
a lack of words lined with
judgement
confusion
fear
places unsafe
unsavory
necessary
disorienting
a misaligned compass
whose magnet might be
warped
my directions follow feelings
and need alternate connections
a myriad of myopic microscopic
accidental miscreants
view me from somewhere concealed
and continue
over and over
to judge who I am
what I do
calculate scores
of calculated mistakes
that are nothing more
than moments
thus I'm borne again
forging my own iron mail
made of what I
can
believe
love
hope
fallibilityhonesty
connection
will that be enough?
the Oracle
is silent
but she gestures
my gaze may be
cross eyed
no matter.
I will forge ahead
and listen to the song
of my own making
what else is there
to do?
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